wish list

new iPod
new laptop
Have my own place
iPod Dock or Edifier
Have my hair dyed blue
Suzuki Swift
travel to Japan
go to Bora
more bags and shoes! :)
save and earn money
Have a merry Christmas this year

sand

andy best drummer
kaye anti-social
kei hang time
motie spongebob
nic mrs. johnny depp
tapel light my fire
ye X piracy X

mine kinky
panget si vincent

kubo

acy alya anjo anna arianne bea sales berna ceska chippo danielle esme eia fatima issa izell jan juno katwo leo migui monic monte paeng pastar poj renchie rianne russ sam trogi the pogi

sea food

bamboo cambio chicosci itchyworms kjwan nARDA parokya ni edgar sandwich urban dub

bob marley no doubt the darkness

magic899 NU rock1075

puka shells

google yahoo friendster myspace photobucket hi5 blogger pinoy chords happy tree friends ultimate guitar

henna tattoo

jordi labanda carolina herrera stella mccartney dolce and gabbana kate spade marc jacobs betsey johnson

nostalgia

November 2008

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August 2008

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by-standers

Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Conversational powers are no common gift, especially among women meeting daily in the same circle

Yesterday was no common day. We didn't have practice yesterday and I influenced Ralph to cut his review classes. Tsk tsk tsk. Bad Influence.

Hung out the whole yesterday in Katipunan, been to vatious places in Katipunan. Most memorable: Gayuma. Not only that we talked about things there, it also went black-out while we were there.

Arrived home, thinking about A LOT of things. Things that are bothering me. How come things went on like this? I honestly didn't expect it coming. Maybe it was a very good hiding strategy that I avoid to see because I trust too much.

I found out I was adopted. The feeling that you are really loved by people, isn't it happy to have it? They earned their trust in you so much that even the slightest negative we see, we always come up with silly things that tend to somehow cover it up with positive. Is it bad to see things the positive way? Is it bad to have mastered the benefit of a doubt? Is it bad for people to earn their trust in me because I love them too dearly for them to be making unnecessary decisions that I do not know of? I'm guessing not. But I think it is. It's making me weaker and weaker every word I hear. So this is the feeling of oweing a lot from a person or from persons. I am under you. I am your slave. It makes me weak emotionally. I never saw it coming. How would anyone who's on the other side of this situation notice it?

I'm not mad. Just disappointed. Disappointed of having this situation again. It's like grade school all over again. I always hated these. Actually I still do. But there's nothing I can do about it. No one knows who's right here. People are people. It's an instinct to do what's right (for them). People are instinctly good, but not in decision making.

Digging a hole from the past ground is not bad. What's bad is planting a tree in that hole.

Aloha

8:34 AM

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