wish list

new iPod
new laptop
Have my own place
iPod Dock or Edifier
Have my hair dyed blue
Suzuki Swift
travel to Japan
go to Bora
more bags and shoes! :)
save and earn money
Have a merry Christmas this year

sand

andy best drummer
kaye anti-social
kei hang time
motie spongebob
nic mrs. johnny depp
tapel light my fire
ye X piracy X

mine kinky
panget si vincent

kubo

acy alya anjo anna arianne bea sales berna ceska chippo danielle esme eia fatima issa izell jan juno katwo leo migui monic monte paeng pastar poj renchie rianne russ sam trogi the pogi

sea food

bamboo cambio chicosci itchyworms kjwan nARDA parokya ni edgar sandwich urban dub

bob marley no doubt the darkness

magic899 NU rock1075

puka shells

google yahoo friendster myspace photobucket hi5 blogger pinoy chords happy tree friends ultimate guitar

henna tattoo

jordi labanda carolina herrera stella mccartney dolce and gabbana kate spade marc jacobs betsey johnson

nostalgia

November 2008

October 2008

September 2008

August 2008

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by-standers

Monday, September 25, 2006
What happens next?

This day, Sunday Sept24, 2006, has been ugly. Emotionally, hell is eating me alive. I'm completely.......alone? Fuck. I haven't been myself the whole day. I woke up with a huge drama on my face. Tonight, I think I'm going to sleep with the whole world on my shoulders.

I'm afraid of what you're going to answer next.

Water works. I'm a wreck. Have I been lying to myself? Have I been pretending? Have I been hiding? Just when I really need someone, there's no one....left. What am I to do?

Today, Monday Sept25, 2006, I haven't been completely myself. I don't know if I could do this. Is it really time for this? I don't want any mistakes because I've clearly done a lot already. Many regrets. Some are coming back, some stay where they are because they chose to stay that way, and some chose not to go back.

People always leave. However, some people change so fast. Like some people, now they perspire already unlike before. Small factor, yes, but that's fast. Either way, they only speak one language. It still hurts.

You're not holding me back. I'm so free, godammit. What's there to hold back?

BURNOUT. Everything's happening like a cycle, and wtf, I don't know if I still love it or not. I think I have to have something new happening in my life. Sport? Hobby? You're making me think! I don't want to think about these things. I always end up doing the wrong decision! Full of regrets. Yeah, it is harder to look back than to gather all of your strength to do whatever you want to do in life. It is harder.

I was afraid you'd say that. I don't know what to do.

I am about to sleep. Actually I don't know if I can.

Actually, I can sleep now. Haaaay. How fast it goes. Now, there's someone again. :)

1:13 AM

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